Misophonia is a hatred of sounds where people react to certain sounds, sounds their mind justifies that is so bad that it can send them into violent rages or make them so upset they cry.   
For a long while I had expressed my hatred for certain sounds here ( mostly the shoutbox)  I never knew that misophonia existed or that other people felt the same way I did about certain sounds.
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I just saw the Kitkat commercial where they try to mimic their jingle with people making nasty crunchy sounds by eating kitkats. crunchcrunchcrunch, oh god i almost took a brick to the TV- i wanted to cry.

When i fight my urge to lash out when I hear something I hate I feel so drained, so worn out, my whole body shudders.  this is madness. I never lash out, I want to, i want to rage and smash things but I can't. I have no right.

I wish I knew what this had been when I was 16.

I'm 26 now and I thought I was completely insane all those years.

I'm glad for the most part, that I am not alone.

for many years , many sounds had made me want to explode with rage but i never, ever lashed out - except towards myself. when i hear what i hate, my anxiety goes through the roof.

this is insanity.

I've grown up with many ear issues, infections, assholes bullying me for it.  I'd sometimes get them out of the blue  in school, so I would hold my ear, scoot away from everyone else, do my own thing...Yeah, I had people SCREAM INTO MY EARS. stunning me, that shit stunned me - which led me to misbehave in class and lash out at the teachers for not calling out on the fuckers picking on me - then they only cared when i  defended myself. yeah , i was a temper tantruming monster in school. the only way i could get morons to get the fuck away from me.

  I didn't have many hatred of sounds until I was 16, I heard someone eat some seeds, I don't know why, I homed in on that person, I focused right on the action of their mouth fucking with the seed, the shell cracking open and then... the chewing. THAT LITERALLY BLEW MY MIND.

since then, eating, the sounds of eating, my own eating, the clacking of dishes - sends me into hysterics.  my hearing has gone apeshit, i hear things that is so fucking pointless it is astounding - it drives me nuts - as much as the rage builds up in me when i hear these things i hate - i've never asked or yelled at anybody to knock off whatever they were doing.   it helps that i can easily distract myself so that i can drown out the sounds i hate but the damage is there, once the absence of the sound i hate is felt, i just.. reel from it.

i often wonder if i suffer from a sensory disorder.  it doesn't really cause that much havoc in my life but i've seen others have it far far far worse , they are complete assholes when they get triggered, sad thing is, they don't want to be that way, who the fuck does?

the mind  can be such a monster.